• expenditure
• hospitality
• itinerary
• genting (i have no idea who came up with this but i am going to say a big no to it cause this trip for me is solely for KL!)

and of course, whatever which might actually come up during the course of this meeting... this is all i will say in regards to KL trip... i rest my case till my big bitch mouth open up this sunday itself...

no, work! well, i am alone in my office most of the time during office hours and i got fauzee to accompany me after office hours... i know it sounds kinda weird that 1 person is to take care of the WHOLE of Training Village alone on office hours and 'POOF', appears somebody after ofice hours when i am not suppose to work... just a friend to keep company every night, that's all... and no, there's nothing between me and fauzee...
anyone who thinks otherwise is welcomed to my stylized slaughterhouse, namely people who cant bitch back against me...

last thing, my life... well, i like this guy... like mad to be true... he's straight, but at a certain point of time he returned the same feelings i had for him... so i tried to work things out... i'm not too sure how far i've succeed or how bad i've failed, but ya... i went out with other guys at the same time when going out with him, just a meet-up but no... that same feeling i did not feel when the first time i went out for a movie, slept on the same bed, or the first time i treated him to Popeye's at terminal 1 on the 27th June.. haha, he's cute when eating... hehe..
but the same insecurity fell on me when we didn't talk for a long time on the phone... well, 2 days is long enough for me to miss him actually.. the problem with me, i've went out with a straight guy before in my camp days... and it became a disaster... from friends, to date and it took a turnabout.. we are currently enemies, for a petty cause... i dun wanna lose this guy the way i lose him..
probably that's why i am overprotective, though i wanna let him have his own freedom... i just wanna see him smile back at me when i smiled at him, that cheeky grin he gave me that morning when he was on his way to work at tampines, the way he tenderly touched my back, the love i have so long craved for...
i did things he didnt like, and he just remained silent.. was it that he liked me for whatever i do, or he just didnt care..?
i sent him SMS nightly, and it suddenly ended without a gud nyt recently.. i used to end it with an 'i love you' or 'gud nyt', at least he replied a gud nyt, tat was enough.. not now... was it because he just cant be bothered or he have found someone new? probably just not too raise his handphone bills? sorry, i have a crazy way sometimes to make things sound positive...
but if he says something like he's busy, i'll trust him.. cause that's what i wanna earn, his trust.. after that his love..
haiz, i've no idea where this relationship is going and what's the journey... probably its true what people say, i pain myself to achieve what i see as a victory, but yet i'm confident that the pain will be all worthwhile if u succeed, though the pain remains to remind you of all the things which are negative that have happened..

well, i guess i have typed my share after a long time of not typing... haha... see you folks... love you all...