hello people!!! well, we'll start from saturday straight...

• Sofian
  met up with sofian at his school, morth vista secondary school... ooh, u shud be there... some DAMN gorgeous young boys, and taller then me!!(not a surprise actually..) well, whatever... from there we went to marsiling secondary school... for the malay band thingy... well, as usual, NO INSTRUMENTS!! i am like seriously wasting my time over there... and so i just sit down like some dumb asshole as usual... well, sofian argued with the higher authorities about the instruments so i'll be getting mine right before the performance... its seriously that stupid...
• Eat
  went to eat after that... with azam, zahidah, hashim, zaid, sofian and nasruddin... well, havent been hanging around with kak marie and fir cos
  1) fir is depending on other people financially...
  2) they already have liyana to replace us actually...
  so yeah... and met johan on the way... wonder who is that weird people???!?!?!?!?! GRRRRRR!!!
• Home
  i was so tired, i went home... and thats what i feel like doing now while typing though...
• Sunday
  went market!!! and was late to meet sofian... well, met up with him and went staright for marsiling secondary... i was at last reunited with my clarinet... in better condition now... and that reminds me i gotta get a cleaning cloth for my clarinet... well, no reed though so i got a reed from hafiz amron(i have no idea why is sofian going goo-goo-gah-gah over him though)... well, blowed until i got tired... its worst then sucking cock... and met ex-crush azwee!!! miss him so much!!!
• Eat
  went out and eat with the same bunch of people... eat and go smoke... it was not expected that azam, zaid and nasruddin smokes though... but well, they do...
• Home
  same reason... BLAH!!! i lead a boring life...
• today... woke up feeling sick, shahul called and i am sorry i dod not entertain u much cause i am indeed sick... well, supposed to pluck eyebrows but did not cause i met mum first... then go home feeling feverish, shahul called and i was not in the mood of talking... so sorry shahul... then cant sleep until i messaged kazaf, kenny, rei and shahul about when on earth can we hang out like the first tym i knew them... i am indeed more sentimental when i am sick...

well, have to end here cause my nose is dripping like tap water... and my customers are looking at me with a flowing nose typing on the computer, not sure if they wanna use it still but i think they will... well, bye now!!!

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3:32 am;

hey peeps!!! well, kinda crazy but it seems i am actually spennding more time blogging then actually spending my time with my darling ps2 at home, my only source of entertainment!!! damn, its a nutsy world out there btw people... so take good care of yourself ok??? dun worry, nothing happened to me recently though... well, lets talk about my life again...
from now on, we'll skip the boring details... i have no idea why i even type that down...

• Out With Ismail!!
  well, since i slept at the airport, since i dun wanna go home and luk at my uncle's face and start a petty squabble.. this is what i did... waited for ismail, and not forgetting niis at ct1 at 2pm.... yeah, and off we went to tampines mall... first stop, long john silver!!! miss the food there since i cant go and eat long john with sofian cos he does not like it... too cheap for him if i am not wrong... so ya... EAT!!! i ordered a combo 3(ismail paid for mine cos he got 100dollars richer!!!) consisting of fish, chicken and also shrimps... healthy stuff, well, ignoring the fats and oils cause they are actually using white meat... and people, i made up my own imaginary friend named bob!!! nice name rite??? whatever... well, me being me, we were talking about nonsensical sex all the way...and also the 2 videos we watched, the first was a video of an autopsy, where the brain was taken out(damn cool la!!!) and the next was a woman vomiting into a pot and after that drink up all she had vomited(damn gross!!! i wanted to puke my brunch out actually..)... when i looked for my eyeliner and compact powder since metro have sale and is having clearance sale(on top of the great singapore sale) but DAMN!!! sold out!!! both eyeliner AND compact powder... and forgot to pass by watsons to get it... so i am gonna buy it like after this... at least we found niis pantyhose at the sale... well, after that, went to get niis shoes... and for god's sake, the shoe was like damn nice and it fit her but she was like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO choosy that i actually demanded her to get it cos i miss my bed... hahaha!!! sorry dear, cant help it... well, went home and sleep after that of course...
• Late-ness Of The World!!!
  and i dun wanna remind u people i hate being late... rushed down to work yesterday and while inside the bus, this guy or gurl farted and revealed wad she ate for one of her meals... eggs!!!! gross!!! u shud be there and smell it... thats when i messaged sofian, kazaf, kenny, johan and rei what would they do if someone actually farted in the bus and it stinks of eggs?? did not ask shahul since he have more then enough on his mind and apparently did not know kazaf had another date... so ya, the answers are like this...
  sofian: act nonchalant like as if nothing happen. pinch ur nose, pretend it wasnt u...(its not me by the way...)
  kenny:ask he boil or fried the egg lol
  kazaf:no reply(bet he cant be bothered)
  rei:no reply(he too probably cant be bothered)
  johan: (he called)whats with the question???(i explained)thats damn gross la!!!(i say bubbye)bubbye...
  then reach work... and started working of course...

and this will be the ending part, i have read 3 books for the last 5 days so now i am gonna give their rating...

• The Fifth Day
  Rating:3 out of 5
  damn slow, fortunately, its a thriller and there's a little bit of religion in it and at the same time science... about the story, i shall tell you since its damn slow... about a man discovering why the hell his brother died... and i dun wanna remind u again, its damn slow... and it also talks about the four horsemen of apocalypse, war, pestilence, famine and death... its stupid, but the ending is nice, thats why 3 point rating...
• Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince
  Rating:5 out of 5
  read it up yourself... a book not to be missed, speaking of which, the last installment for the harry potter is series is out today so dun forget to get it today ya peeps!!!
• Boyfriend Material
  Rating:5 out of 5
  extremely bitchy, erotic and very gay... its damn fun la!!! anyone wanna borrow the book, ask me.. it belongs to sofian though... but i think i am gonna lend it out on his behalf... yupp.... he seems to have forgotten about it though, but well, i'll remind him about it sometime soon though...

well, until here peeps!!! bubbyez!!!

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8:25 am;

well, yesterday's thought of the day,
"shit do happens!!!"
and for today,
"shit still happens!!!"

well, first stupid thing of the day, to wake up in the early morning and watch television, not there's anything intersting on screen... well, a way to kill time...
second, to messaged someone i dunno at all and ask him whether he will give someone a heads on...(he did not reply, and that was seriously a wildcard kinda question when i am bored...) my answer would be a yes if u are wondering though... its only a blowjob... can even do it in a car, rite kazaf??? damn, i am feeling bitchy... sorry!!!
third, to say hello picking up the phone when its not ringing...
fourth, god!!! i am gonna stop... too many shit, i slept to stop pmyself from doing anything stupid btw...

and people keep on sending me stupid emails!!! its irritating, and i just realised someone have changed my profile for friendster saying i am a loser... but i just cant be bothered to change it back!!! i am so pissy and bitchy!!! bloody bitch!!! damn stupid, i really wish i could just slapped that face of whoever who did that, seriouisly no life...

well, lets start with the 18th of july after work... spent time at the shop, for what, dun ask... even i am rather clueless... then make my way home, bathe, change into pe attire and off to toa payoh west cc mall... not forgetting people just look at my legs, well, newly shaved so i would understand since i beat some girls to most beautiful leg contest... not my cousins though, damn... back to the story, went to the cc for this fusion game training... a mixture of badminton, squash and tennis... like, its been a long time since i exercised... did not stretch so that explains my foul mood cause my muscles are stretching everywhere until now... its irrating... i walked everywhere like as if i have something up my ass... dick?? something like it... it would be nice but yet, lets not bring me back to my slut years!!! those were enjoyable though... but u feel cheap and bad... well, whatever...

well, skip the sex part, now... went to the airport, slept and went back home... i am just not comfortable with someone else in the house, my aunts maid... just freaky, thats all... well, seriously, i cant concentrate with this aching going on on regarding what the hell should i be writing!!! and i think i am mumbling all the way... well, lets just get to today...

well, now, woke up, and actually sms iza if she can replace me, and here she is beside me looking at me typing at what the hell i am probably... then after that, after some few stupid things, as i said, went to sleep... and here i am now... before coming here, i saw this guy named matt who is 39(he looked 25) from new zealand and is drunk... could have asked him for a fuck but he is too freaky to ask from, though i know he will give, 100%!!!! well, weird world... but whatever... i shall end here, this shall be the most boring entry typed yet... soio now, adios... bubbyez!!!!

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4:02 am;

well, its my 20th posting!!! much more successful then all my previous bloggies apparently and all under the same name... uselesspitch!!! just luv that nick for most of my online things... easier to remember... lets start with todays story....
supposed to meet shahul and sasha sherlyn at taka... apparently did not cause shahul thinks that sasha is probably still sleeping so he advised me to go home first just in case sasha might be like super late and i wont get enough rest for work... very thoughtful right!!! i love that brother of mine... well, whatever it is, i did go home, missed my stop like three times, one of the worst bus stories i ever had... missed the bus all the way to the interchange THRICE i mean.... from airport to bedok, then take bus to ang mo kio(suppposed to stop at hougang) and skipped my bus again and after one last time before i walked back home... god must be trying to tell me i am getting fatter...
well, home alone since gramps went out, so slept, that i skipped all the prayers for the day, damn i feel sinful and went to work... well, got a scolding before that though... for not eating... god must be tellling me now dun take a diet to seriously probably... i am kinda extreme sometimes...
went to work, and realised, I NEED TO GET MY COMPACT POWDER SOON!!! finishing soon, NOT FORGETTING THE BLOODY EYELINER!! damn, make up can be rather stressful at times... luckily i dun need a blusher... phew!!!
well, reached work, and i thought of a story cel told me while she was working at pastamania... this is how it goes...
Cel: hi welcome to pastamania, whats ur order maam???
Auntie: one carbonia...
Cel: ??????????? carbonara?????????
Auntie:AH!!! yayayayayaya....
Cel:choice of pasta maam???
Auntie: ya, pasta...
Cel: fusilli, spaghetti, macaroni or linguine???
Auntie:aiyah, the noodle one la...

well, this is ione way to proove how most of our nyonyas wanna modernise but just cant cut through that well apparently... well, there's more weird things at my shop which i dun serve... well, tell u about it when i see u guys... and talked to alvin... this cute guy, haha... but been missing in action for quite long... i do have feelings for him though... well, take care peeps, i have another date next week thoiugh... well bubbyez!!!

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2:51 am;

well, blogging again after god knows how many days... LOVE U DARLING BLOG!!! well, of course there is more to love in this life... i'll skip to the more important things though...

• The Date!!!
  well, i did tell you i went out on a date on sunday rite?? well, i regret it.. the guy just too old for me la... freaky, its like going out with my uncle... and i HATE people who does nonsensical approach when i just get to know him!!! i dun wanna tell him straight into the face of course that i am not his toy... felt so stressed up... well, i did messaged him in the theater even though he is like rite beside me... the message went like this...
  "dun mind me but do u mind putting ur hands off me cause i dun feel that comfortable??? thank you and sorry"
  well, lucky for him that he did or else i am gonna put up a drama... considering that no one knows what a rebel i am yet... and considering that only shahul and ian and lutfi knows what a slut i am during my school years, though i have not perfected the skill of blowjobbing then like i already did now... and people, jux for your information, i have a sex partner... just one... and i have been like that for 2 years... both would only stop when we are attached... and he is straight btw.... rare delicacy, so why miss the chance???
• After The Date!!!
  he decided to go eat duck rice and i told him i am going to the toilet and well, do it the classic way... just disappear after that... i mean I did that... though i messaged him that i dun wanna meet anymore... so bitchy, but thats me... ;) well, asked johan what to wear but he sounded rather pissy so i dun wanna prolong the talking with him... now i understand after reading his blog... sorry for that dear, did not mean to... and i felt sorry for kenny also... and also to shahul who is having some kinda dilemma rite now... god bless u guys... well, went toilet, messaged kenny like shit!! the 'f' word frequent in the messages i sent, and i stoned in the toilet for a good 30 minutes actually... while reading the paper... haha.... i cant imagine i actually did it... well, gud enuf i did not sleep like i intended to....
• Shahul!!!
  well, called shahul and met up with him though i waited for quite long, it was a good feeling to meet him after a terrible accident, well, not that terrible as any of the three i just talked about just now... and shahul let out all his problems... not that i dun have any, just that i have mine in better control since like the saying goes,
  "i am an actress, a bitch, a diva... dun call me haikal if i am neither one of the above"
  "i am a homosexual, survivor of discriminations for more then a centuries old, nothing is impossible for me..."
  well, just the bitchy sayings i always tell myself at least... and btw people, my overseas friends are so CUTE!!! haha, yupp, that goes to you tom, lawrence and chris... (16, 18, 28 respectively..) well, the thought that lawrence have a car to drive still irritates me though...
• Shopping!!
  well, went shopping with shahul... yupp, SHOPPING!!! the once dreaded thing for me is a monthly must from now on... well, shahul only went to body shop... and made a new friends... miss sasha sherlyn!!! a trans but trust me, shahul and me loved her when we saw her... haha!!! very funny and very open minded... kinky fella... I LIKE!!! well, shahul bought his body products and i might be going there to buy cosmetics probably, nothing more then eyeliner, compact powder and i mite get lipgloss... just to look sexy, u get it?? everyone is beautiful, its just how they make themselves look better with whatever god have sent down to us... yupp... especially make up and specs and contact lenses!!!
• well, do i need to say i went home??? not by car(the thought still itches my brain...) but by bus... yupp...

and part 2, what happened last friday... the misinteractions with my dear customers...

• The Italian(or arabian or latin???) u decide...
  well, he stayed overnite at the store, not that i never haad any, i have them everyday, from regular customers with no place to go home after work and stranded passengers... i wont deny that my sofas are uncomfortable... just dusty... well, in the morning, he asked me to take care of his bag and well disappeared for 1 hour... well, got suspicious and i called in the police to take his bag away... same old irritating report... but they ended it faster because i was too cooperative...(who wont if the officer is like so cute!!!???) well, it was freaky... haha!!! but funny... i had a bread knife with me in the counter afraid he will come and attack me... well, the knife was well sharpened... by me!!! and dangerously also, by me!!!
• The Chinese
  well, asked if we have wifi... i told him wifi under airport and his reply was...
  "i dun want coffee, u got wifi??"
  and i went out of speech... and i told him to go to the info counter... make matters worst, info counter says i have wifi... i went speechless again... and i told him, get a coffee and use my computer and he said,
  "WIFI!?!?!?!"
  my reply... "dun have... and end of story for china man...
• Never leave out, The INDIANS!!!
  well, coffe and tea is their normal item... espresso with a hell lot of milk that it turns into a cafe latte... another... what is the best... any pastries at the shop is....
  BREAD!!! so bread all the way... and when u take the wrong thing, they'll scream at you... well, what do you do if that happens... SCREAM BACK!!! heck service, and they will actually respect you though... but dun over do it... or ur in for a beating...

well, thats all... and johan is still damn closeted, but as sofian says, a glass closet... a few knocks and the glass will shatter and the truth will spill out... well, thats all peeps... BUBBYEZ!!!

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3:04 am;

Hey now people!!! i am back with a whole new long post as usual for today... hope u guys enjoy reading.. i wont be modest in my blog but i know i type stupid and slightly interesting stuffs here usually... (buey hao bai!!) well, whatever... now to the story...

• Glorious Food!!! Fish!!!
  gimme fish!!! any fish!!! well, not the ones kenny and kok shen saw at marina bay though... my gramps cooked some fish with soup... its cod if i am not wrong... and its fantastic!!! today, "asam pedas", damn spicy and accidentally salty since she is fasting today and cant taste the gravy... and more fish!!! i love my big momma!!!
• Regarding Cel...
  her days are still numbered in pacific coffee.... yupp... 10th august in the morning taking jet star back to manila... oh ya, she worked from 8am to 11pm yesterday cause raja had an accident, have i said that?? well, whatever... just say it again then...
• Hindi Songs
  more of Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gam!!! must watch that show liao... very nice movie... well, hindi shows to watch...
  kabhi kushi kabhi gam
  devdas
  kuch kuch hota hai
• SATS
  if u are wondering what is SATS, its the ticketing officers for flights at changi airport... they are the one who entertain almost everyone of the visitors coming to singapore... hahaha... its stressful, according to my sister... well, one thing for sure... they gotta learn how to put on make up... SERIOUSLY!!! their service can be good AT TIMES when they are feeling good... but seriously, make up girls... i can look more beautiful then you if i am wearing that ckirt and vest u r wearing... and i dun need to remind u guys that i wont be modest in my blog...
• AMY LEE POH HUA!!! My Nemesis!!!
  welll, she said i will be part time as of 1st of august.. yupp...so, i GOT MORE TIME AT LAST FOR MYSELF!!! but i am still gonna hunt for another job that is... probably trying retail??? yeah, i will...
• Pimple...
  i am not gonna talk about this... it stresses me up... shit!!!
• Black Pepper Sauce, Ketchup And Chilli
  u read about 'curry, ketchup and chilli' on the previous posting..? its the same thing, by the same race as usual... yupp... i give up on indians...
• Kazaf and Johan
  dear sister and brother, (respectively), ur blog takes damn long to download on my company's computer... must be the computer... haha... sorry, just blogging about it... told you, its MY LIFE!!!
• Erm
  i did tell most of you that i am a lil bit indian rite?? well, it took me to put some sense into another indian... this means, it takes an indian to tok to another... IRRITATING U KNOW!?!?!?!

and some interesting things u might wanna know about... the last part is usually more interesting then the rest...

osama's son who is 27 years old is getting married to an old lady from egypt aged 51... kinky??? very... i wonder how do they even have sex... ITS IMPORTANT OK!!! and dun call me a pervert for that... sex is important when u are married...

talking to lawrence(the one froom uk)... he have a car!!! and he is making me damn jealous about it... and i am 8 days older then him and he is much taller then me...

its irritating...

talking to new friend chris from denmark i think... he is great!!! to tralk to i mean.. haha... funny guy... 28 years old... yupp... haha.... and last but not least...

My imagination
i came out with alot of my fantasies and if i have the time, i shall type it down... few of them are:
1001 things u can do at the staircase
a night out at the beach
the dark alley
swing along!!!

and lots more... haha.. till here.. todays's is boring and long.. yeah i know... kinda sleepy thats why i have been typing down shit all the way actually... well, take care guys... love ya all...

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3:03 am;

hello people!!! haha!!! i am feeling so hyper now i guess... well guys... a lot of shit... i shall start from yesterday... i missed out alot because i was rather pissy with somethings... and now, i shall start...

• MESSY!!!
  lets start with what i saw when i came in for work... the whole store is in a mess!!! make it better, if amin wasn't there, it would be messier!!! first tym ever i am so disappointed with my girls!!! but its understandable... since raja just recovered from an accident(she is malay btw) and nadiah have been working like a dog... its understandable... the only not understandable part is, cant u just throw the rubbish for gods sake..? i pity amin, he gotta like throw the rubbish TWICE!!! once is crazy, TWICE is HELL!!! not forgeting that changi airport is one of those places with a hell lot of thrash!!! so imagine how stinky it can be at times... at times that is... and next,


• The Horse Ride
  while typing down in my dear bloggie yesterday, some of my customers were talking about horse riding... i wanted to turn around and tell them, women are still humans, and they are not mens tool or toy for ur sexual desires... well, been there so i know how it feels like being used for sex... horrible...


• Lawrence and Tom
  well, halfway through, was talking to lawrence and tom... havent been talking to them for quite some time already, especially tom~~~ miss u dude!!! speaking of which, lawrence have to go to somewhere by then(its 3am in singapore) and tom was talking to me... very chatty!!! i love talking to that guy!!! he have a lot to talk about, i like!!!! and not forgetting, both are from uk... i have no idea whare lawrence is from, but tom is from wales... well, if the 2 of u are reading, happy reading guys!!!


• Johan
  this fella, well, i slept for a while and i text him, kenny and kazaf to blog so i can read when i am bored... he finished his at 4.58am probably... and a hell lot of pics... guys, take a look at his blog yeah... haha!!! well, he took till 4.58 am so it gotta be nice... well, it is... hahahaha!!! lotsa pictures.... at his workplace...
  
• Curry, Ketchup and Chilli
  another episode of the weird indians... one ordered a chicken masala wrap, which instantly have masala in it... then he asked for ketchup, and i told him there is masala in it, he insisted on ketchup, and chilli sauce... i tried, it tasted like chicken wrap with no masala with chilli sauce and ketchup dippers...
  the point in getting a chicken masala wrap:- no point...
  
• Customers
  CUTE!!! thats all i have to say about the bunch who entered at 5.30am... yupp...
  
• Plans On Sunday
  well, this sunday... and unconfirmed date with this guy named benn.. never see before... so i am like big tym wondering who the hell he is... wish me luck friends...
  
• Cel's Days Are Numbered
  10th of august, and back to phillipines... gonna miss little momma... she is like the best manager u can get over here... awww, seriously... i am gonna miss her... and while at her homeland, she'll email her resignation.... bitchy? VERY!!! I LIKE!!! hahaha, 1 less bitching buddy soon... damn... the good thing, i gained more... yupp...
  

i went home after that actually... missed my first training... damn, and my mum is screaming at me... and my stepfather have been safely buried... thanks be to god for the safe burial, amin.... then as usual, to work!!!

• At work
  thorough cleaning since i am rather free... like now... and i wanna talk about my customer of the day...

Prof. Canhua Huang
a professor from the university of szechuan in china... well, he is gonna work there from now on after working at NUS as a research scientist here... well, lets go to part of the conversation...

Haikal: Hi, good evening...
Prof: Hi, can i get a coffee so that my child can sleep on one of your sofa???
Haikal: (quizzical look) Sure... Just get a drink and your accommodation will be free plus free internet service... (SMILES)
Prof: Thank you, thank you... I get one cup of coffee...
Haikal: Milk for your coffee?
Prof: Yes... You work until the morning???
Haikal: Yes, until 8am...
Prof: EVERYDAY?? Then you always see the moon??
Haikal: Yes, that when i see the sun, i run away...
Prof: (laughing) Thanks for the coffe boy... U malay??
Haikal: Yes i am... well, here's your coffee... Enjoy your stay here... And sir, i havent put sugar in your coffee...

well, after that he stood around the counter and talked more... funny fella... hahahaha!!! cant stop laughing... well, at least i understand what he says unlike someof the mainland indians...

Haikal: (fake smile) Good morning...
Indian: Bater bater...
Haikal: ?????????????????????????????WHAT?????????????????????????
Indian: BATER BATER!!!
Haikal: ????????????????????????????SORRY????????????????????????
Indian: BOTER VOTTER!!!
Haikal: Oh, bottled water... at the fridge, just take yourself... $2... Thank you, have a nice day.... (cursing under my breath...)

well, before i end the blog, listening to hindi songs... well, take care guys... and i really want shahul to watch kabhi kushi kabhi gam... really nice show... its indian, but well, this one is nice... c ya guys some other tym... take care... LOVE U ALL!!! *MUACKZ*

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2:42 am;

alright, i am using the stupidest out of the 3 computer in the shop... the computer which would suddenly switch all the english characters to english, korean or japanese... its a whole lot of bull with this computer actually.... seriously!!!
alright, now lets start with the story... well, i'll start out first with my customer... as usual, anything weird, its usually the indians!!! not being racist but this time, i really cant help it...

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1:26 am;

hello people... well, things to talk about today...

1. me sleeping
2. me sleeping
3. me sleeping

oh ya, thats the most important thing for today actually cause i was like so damn tired... SERIOUSLY!!! working alone for 5 hours cleaning up the WHOLE store is crazily tiring... u guys should try... its like cleaning up your whole house inclusive of the equipments i mean.... damn, i am having a backache right now... OUCH!!!

and plus-plus... a list of the nicknames given to me by others!!!

1. Tai-Tai!!!
2. liyana, yana
3. leann
4. kyle, kylie

and my top three favourites!!!

1. kitty!!!
2. pussy!!
3. tabby!!

and there we are... well, now we shall speak about what happned for the day after the last time i blogged...

went down to t1 changi airport by kak hasni's car... sent them the items they needed and took all my item and zoom back home... and all the way... SLEEP!!!!! then wake up, bathe, go to work... i was 1 hour late for your info... hahaha!!! thx to sleeping... and reached work, close the casher and start cleaning up... but since i cleaned LATERALLY everything already, there's nothing much to do today, now i mean... yupp... thats why i have my time to actually blog or else u will be seeing me washing the bar rite now... and i am so happy that this place is pest-less... except for stupid ants.... urghh!!! can kill!!! well... thats the end actually... and i think i mite have a debate with shahul on the slut issue... i mite have an answer to why most of singapore gays, especially the malay society are behaving like sluts... well... thats all folks... bubbyez....

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1:50 am;

well, since i have nothing to do while waiting for kak hasni to finish and send me home from work, i shall just spill the feelings of my heart...
to shahul, kenny, sofian, kazaf, lutfi and of course lots more of my friends... thx for being there when i needed u guys...
to johan, everyone does stupid things, and i am sorry for troubling you, but no feelings yeah...
to nadiah, siti and raja, keep on rocking, i have never felt better before in my life then bitching and working with you... love u guys... oh, and dun forget we are going shopping on pay day aights...

and something else.... be careful of what you do... simpla things can lead someone on, for example, a simple kiss, a simple hug, a simple carressment and a simple wink... its funny how simple things might just mislead someone, i have experienced this... and i am just sick and tired of making sure that people are happy and i get nothing in return... i am indeed frustrated, love, its a cure and yet the most painful emotion on earth... well, if i start turning into a slut, thats a way i wanna run from my problems, and gradually, i shall solve it... i hate to be that way but unfortunately, it was the way i got over leonard and rudi... it might work now.... however, a scar can never be removed for it shall always be there, healed but marks remains... i am not talking in riddles btw... hahahaha!!! sometimes i even wonder where the hell i got all my energy to laugh when i am feeling down... god, i thank you... i might not be your most humble and loyal slave but i thank you for that very essence of strenght u provide in me everytime, that strenght which helped me overcome the trauma of 23rd march of 2001 for 5 days straight, the incident of 23rd june 2004, and the pain of 13th august 2005 and also that of 2002... now, help me overcome 11th june and also 7th july this year... amin...
well, till there only... god bless evryone... ;)

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hey people... gonna make this quick...
went out with sofian yesterday after hearing jais dilemma from him needing instruments and palyers so i am lending jais a hand... irritating as the band mite be, i cant help not extending a helping hand to someone in need of whatever talent is left in me... so this saturday, before meeting the bitchy crew, going out instrument shopping with sofian and jais... clarinet, when was the last time i touched one??? whatever, then went out to tamp mall, had pastamania, bought my compact powder and lip moisturizer, and back home... so thats all... and at work as usual now of course... alright, bye peeps!!

amy lee is rottting in bed!!!!

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well, well... a second posting in one day... i sure have a hell lot to say... well, first things first... i planned wad to get for kenny's birthday... whether he like it anot, i dunno until this saturday... well, to rei, gud luck for ur competiton and train hard.... trust me, the whole thing is very different without our funny bone around.... and weird things are coming up..? like this fella said he dun like this fella and the next thing u know is that they are holding hands in public... they're not gay so of course its not that interesting but i just wanna go up to their faces and tell them straight into the face HYPOCRITES!!! i wonder if i even got the correct spelling... hahaha!!! wadever... so this shall be the attendance on saturday...

The Birthday Boy
Kenny
The Others
Shahul
Kazaf
Sofian
Haikal

well, what a better way to actually celebrate your birthday then having a bunch of people bitching around and try to have a gud tym... so let me tell u guys how i started my day...

• Arise!!!
  woke up from my slumber on the sofa set... its been a long tym since i actually slept for like 7 hours... so i am thankful about it... yupp... and make it better, nadiah was like damn sleepy, and the store like very messy outside, but i have to thank the girl for the good job inside the counter... MARVELLOUS!!! it would have been better if its the same for out of house... hahaha!!!
• WORK!!!
  what do i have to say about work??? its like the most boring thing ever to talk about and furthermore its one of those things adding on to my depression!!! well, here is an excerpt from amy lee...
  "i'll clear all ur ro and rph first before converting u to part time so u can have like lots of off days and yet u have a ur full time pay..."
  i wanted to tell her something like this but i just dun wanna hurt her... well, have to thank her for giving me a chance to be a manager at 17 years old but still, well, the bottomline is that she sucks... oh ya, i felt like telling her something like:
  "well, i know that u guys cant afford me by paying all of my leave days or else u will go bankrupt and cant pay the rest of your staffs and they will file a lawsuit against u and worsen the matter for you..." but its alright la, cant be bothered anymore... but money is still money, thats the only point that i actually bothered...

well, if i am ever gonna talk about the work part, this shall never end and it will tire further my delicate already tired fingers.... awww, oh ya... and before i forget... i gotta get myself eyeliner, compact powder and moisturizer... yeah!!! hahahahaha!!! and i think i gonna finish this here... my finrgers are crying help!!! so i shall heed it... bubbye people, take care...

oh wait people, finger have one last message!!!

AMY LEE CAN GO ROT IN HELL FOR TIRING ME!!!

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seems like my mood is affecting everyone's at my werk place... seems like so though... they said i havent been laughing, thats why they havent been laughing... they said i have been looking into space for very long, making them worried like WHERE HAVE HAIKAL GONE TO?!!?!?! they meant the one who is always dancing and prancing around the shop like a crazy bitch just to cheer everyone out of their gloominess... seems like its the other way round this few days... well, the truth, i am still wondering about alot of things... things which i have to clarify, things which i am confused about, however things i dun wanna bring up... well, enough of the intro, now lets get to my-story...

• Yesterday
  hmmm, lots happened after i told u guys the arrival of my sister.... doing the stocks is just one thing since i gotta submit all the papers to office by morning yesterday... i took only 2 hours, a great achievement but with lotsa mistakes in it... forgot to order a whole lot of shit... cel is gonna kill me, trust me...
• The Journey To The Other Side
  well, its only from terminal 1 to terminal 2, but whatever... went there with ismail, since he is sending the paperworks on behalf of transit terminal 1, he have been trying to cheer me up like mad... sorry dude, just not in the mood to laugh... and so i reached terminal 2... seems like there is a rift between their own managers... hasni can kill sedah and zack, zack can kill both sedah and hasni, and sedah is just plain blur... hahahahaha!!! sorry dear, ur always like that when u combine ur personal problems and work together... then went out to smoke with kak hasni... seems like my stress level went up, so total amt of cigarettes in one day:- 9... not too bad... i ever finished 2 packs in one day so this just another day where i exceed my usual 5 sticks... well, back to the story, she is resigning.... joining her would be cel... and more to come probably...
• Extension
  this shall be the second day i am extending till 2pm... i can kill both amin and fiee right now... at least amin is responsible but fiee is not so i pardon amin, BUT NOT FIEE!!! well, how to pass time when u are trying to work and not try to sleep...? talk trash... and that is what cel and me did... since both of us are troubled with our love life, we impersonate our archenemy, amy lee............................... hahaha... u shud be there, but first, u have gotta know amy... but i seriously dun suggest that... a hot-blooded hypocrite... thats my description... and all the way till 2pm, it was all about amy lee and her life, whereby i clocked out at 2pm, and dun wanna explain how shitty it is to get a stupid bus...since the terminals bus station is closed... its stupid, trust me, for a classy airport, its really-really stupid...
• Off to HOME!!!
  well, on the way back, nenek call and told me she wont be at home until 930pm... well, i was too sleepy to realise the fact i will be alone, for cant be bothered after i realised... everyone is throwing well wishes to our darling new baby... she is gonna be the most celebrated baby for this year since the WHOLE family have been waiting for a baby from my darling cousin since like, erm... god knows... its too long to remember... went home, and did all i should do... its a tiring day...

well, cant help it but i have been listening to my immortal and seribu bintang the whole day... why..? for me to know, and for u to find out... pointless for me to say why...

• The Return
  well, came back to work at night... am late, cant help it also, i have been working like a dog... so yeah... and cleaned up the whole noght... well, half of the nite cause i ended up at the counter snoring at 4am until 6am... too tired... luckily they gave my off day on both friday and saturday or else, i will kill amy lee.... yupp... whatever it is... i slept...
• Home, Again
  well, before i go home.. that is now... i am going home after typing out this blog... yupp...

sorry people if this posting is boring... well, i am afraid to put my emotions into it, thats all... well, ya.. afraid of what, i actually wonder... whatever la... i swear things are not getting too well...
well, end of story.. and as usual...
AMY LEE CAN GO ROT IN HELL STILL!!!

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i am exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally drenched... all i can say, its not an easy time for me right now.... things seems to get along well and CRASSSSHHHH!!! hahahaha!!! but no time to cry though.... though i do it when i am alone, and of course when i am in the right mood.... no worries peeps... wont do that again.... vowed to myself that i would not breakdown... erm, i hope i will succeed... pray for me peeps!!!
well folks, now here is what happened...
we'll skip to when i started work.... well, i forgot a hell lot of what happened yesterday then daydreaming of good things to come, gonna work hard for it though...

• The Career
  SUPPOSED to be counting the stocks, well, i did it but i ended up sleeping 30 mins while doing my paperworks... erm, cant help it... i do remember telling u that i am exhausted rite..?
• The End Of Work
  erm, well, there is actually no end until 2pm... considering that i started from 11pm last night... and this part, i would like to say, I LIKE!!! NOT!!! that syafiee is going to get one hell of a thorough screwing from me when i see him... grrrr!!! claws and fangs sharpened and prepared for battle.... yeah!!! well, mas got more videos in her phone apparently so thats how i spent my working time... since there was really nothing to do, why not watch porn... i know its wrong but that is like probably the only way that i can actually pass time and stay awake.... a little bit turned on but i laughed more then i get aroused... catching your own sexual encounter on the phone is hilarious... been there, done it, not proud of it... well, at least i did not get into the bluetooth network... whatever it is, its still hilarious... I LIKE!!!
• Now
  blogging... DUH!!!!!

well, to some those few people who knows about my blog... i am still human, even if i am a homosexual... i have emotions and i do experience happiness, sadness and love at a different level from urs... mine is a man love man world and urs is not... that does not mean i go around being a slut and offer my ass to anyone out there who is gorgeous!!! though i have to agree that there are temptations, like as if u dun when u see a busty woman jingling her bells in front of ur face.... i experience love too, i have been there, and been through the part where i overcome heartbreak... have you??? now i shall say....
i am a gay male, and my kind are survivors of centuries of discrimination from ur kind of people... and i am proud to be one...
well, i still need to overcome someone, and so i just realised how stupid i can be by laterally typing down all my thoughts here... sorry kenny!!! will not trouble u with my thoughts anymore aights... live happily... ;)
speaking of which, i had this weird things running in my mind... like if i have a dog which is a bulldog(name will be in brackets, so for the bulldog, it is snoopy), a siamese cat(carpet), a hamster(hamtaro) and a fish(nemo)... feel free to add on to the list... hahaha....

well, thats all folks and......................................

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